The Beauty Struggling

Ya Allah, this is so hesitate day, so weigh, like a weight of a cow..  I have to accept this reality and do all of things which are so make me boring, there is no special thing to do, it’s so far from crowd area, and there is no person make me happy in this special day. U know what ? today is Idul Fitri, most of moslem gather with big family wearing new stuff, going sillaturrahmi, travelling together , laughing sharing each other, meet all of cousin and other big family’s member.  Now, what about me ? all of things around make me boring , a big house, television, laptop, mp4, owh they are nothing without special person in this special day, they are nothing if there are only me and dina enjoy it.  I miss the athmosphere of Id Fitri in the past, gathering with my lovely mom, bg zico, bg gian, lala and other big family. Calling from ma mom isn’t enough to be a medicine of ma heart, so difficult and I’ve just realized it. But Im going to flashback, I remember   this reality happens caused of my plannings, my choice, my dreams, and my goal. I studied hard for getting a chair in psychology UI, I dreamed to be a professional psychologist, then to be a minister of woman and children empowerment. So that I’ve to accept all effects from my choice, and that’s fair. There will be many and more disasters of life in front of you, all of them are waiting for you, will you be strong to past it and then you will get what you want? Or u will give up in this way? This is the choice of life Jel, there are so many struggling which you have to do. The weakness of Iman and principle will make you to be a small people, don’t you ever wonder how we survive? With your brain,love, peace, and willing. Ya, this condition just one of the beautiful struggling of my choice, for me, for ma life. I’ll be strong and stronger, I’ll fight and struggle for it, for my goal and ma family.I’ll stop the whole world. whole sides, look at me, I’ll show to you all who I am. 

Jeanesia P Edward

Menunggu, hal yang paling membosankan dalam hidupku. Saat menunggu, aku selalu terbayang banyak hal, apalagi kini ku hidup di tengah-tengah orang baru, orang-orang yang selama ini tak pernah ku jumpa, dan tentunya dengan lingkungan baru yang biasanya aku hanya bisa membayangkan hidup di kota metropolitan, sekarang aku benar-benar ada dan hidup dalam lingkungan ini. 

Banyak, sangat banyak sekali kenangan, memori indah, baik, buruk, menyenangkan bahkan menyedihkan berputar-putar di benakku. Tapi kini aku benar-benar merindukan sosok sahabat, sahabatku yang jauh di seberang sana, sahabat yang tak pernah marah, polos, tempat berbagi cerita,  dan memiliki semangat hidup yang seringkali menginspirasiku. Semua kenangan itu menari-nari lincah, indah di pikiranku.

      Sebuah ujian mid semester sejarah mempertemukan kami menuju jalinan dua calon sahabat, satu per satu bab kami bahas di dalam sebuah kamar kecil dalam sal asrama SMA,

Friday, August 26, 2011

11:25 PM

The Pure of Kindness

Never imagine that I’ll feel this uncontrolled brain and feeling. All of things around is like laughing at me and make me so envy. Dominantly my friends go back to Padang and gathering with their family there, in Ramadhan and Id Fitri  L. In this holly ramadhan, I have to do all of activities by my own, and with Dina. Ya,, just both we are . I’ll pray Id fitri in mosque beside the house, in Depok. There is no family here, all of them is new people whom I never see them before. Owh, this is reality, even I still hope this is the dream that I’ll get up soon, as soon as possible. Once again, this is reality which I have to let it go on.

When I received good news that I can get a place to alive in next two weeks, I felt so lucky its such a great pleasure for me.. I’ve imagined that I’ll pray Id Fitri and going around while Lebaran Days.  I’ll feel Lebaran days with another family and this is would be the uniq experience for me.  But the luckiness not on me, the dreams keep in dreams, the imagination keeps in imagination. it doesn’t wanna change into the reality I hope. Family go to West Sumatera cause they’ve been so long time no go back to village. All of activities until Lebaran Days will be done by these  two pretty girls without family here,Jelsy and Dina. But,I  still must give thanks for this situation, to the God and to the family who are sooo kind to me. All of the members are so kind and there is no word can describe detail that how kind they are. They are a family, but there  is no connection with me before, they are actually dina’s family, but they wanna give me a place which is the homy place for me, not just a place, but the kindness and the warmness that they gave to me, it’s more than enough. They’re really like my family. I can feel atmosphere of family here. 

OBM, Welcome Collage !!

   Hari ini adalah dua hari terakhir menjelang kami meninggalkan kelas OBM(Orientasi Belajar Mahasiswa), Ruang G-3B. di kelas ini terdapat kumpulan Mahasiswa Baru dari dua fakultas yang berbeda, F.Psikologi dan F.ISIP. Banyak sekali kegiatan-kegiatan yang khusus dirancang untuk menyambut kedatangan kami Mahasiswa Baru Universitas Indonesia. Mulai dari IL, IT-CML, Learning Skill, Problem Based Learning, sampai Collaborative Learning. Cemas awalnya namun pedih akhirnya, karena kami para Mahasiswa Baru yang baru saja saling kenal, sudah harus berpisah untuk menjalani dunia perkuliahan masing-masing yang tentunya tidak bisa se-have fun ini, saling mengenal, komunikasi, bercanda, adu pendapat, dll. Walaupun dengan waktu yang sesingkat ini, saya benar-benar menikmatinya, beruntung sekali rasanya punya teman-teman baru yang baik dan welcome seperti mereka . 
   Beberapa jam lagi kegiatan obm bakal ditutup, Kegiatan mahasiswa baru akan diliburkan dan kembali iadakan pada tanggal 8 september sesudah lebaran, setelah itu kami langsung harus sibuk dengan dunia,cita-cita,mimpi, dan pekerjaan sendiri-sendiri. tidak ada waktu santai, dan waktu pun akan terasa semakin cepat berlalu.
   Mudah-mudahan semua hal ini adalah awal kesuksesanku di dunia perkuliahan dan kerja nantinya.Amiiin...               Jelsy Psiko'11